concreteheart's Xanga

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Thu, 05 Apr 2007 01:40:38 GMT

Ashley and I will be getting separate xangas.

Monday, April 02, 2007

Mon, 02 Apr 2007 04:16:44 GMT

I think I am happy in a very curious way. I have finally reconciled myself to the fact that even overachievers fail at life sometimes and just because I am stubborn doesn't mean I have to stick with my stupid decisions.

Please slap me if I:
1) Don't go back to art after AP exams.
2) Complain about my SAT scores instead of studying to improve them.
3) Read any more depressing books by Michele A. Hernandez. (A is for Admission: The Insider's Guide to Getting Into the Ivy League and Other Top Colleges, Acing the College Application: How to Maximize Your Chances of Getting into the College of Your Choice) Fiske's Guides and Princeton Reviews are okay because they are funny. =]

Wouldn't it be nice if what goes down must come up? (Grades, life in general..)
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EDIT: Add to above list--

4) Believe my parents when they tell me I am not smart enough to go to (INSERT COLLEGE OF CHOICE).

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Sun, 01 Apr 2007 06:12:41 GMT

"You're too young to know that," and "It's too early to decide," are just euphemisms for, "Eventually you will agree with me."

Saturday, March 31, 2007

Sat, 31 Mar 2007 02:34:15 GMT

so i just had a huge rant about being sick and how amazing our stomachs were but then i realized that people don't really give a crap about my stomach nor desire to think about it.
instead i will say that i think it's time i took another break from xanga, perhaps for good.
i'm really not sure at this point. nor really willing to openly talk about it.
we'll see.
right?
that's all that can be done.

Friday, March 30, 2007

Fri, 30 Mar 2007 09:27:29 GMT

Wahahahaha. The Williams College website has a link to Wikipedia. ^^! Any college that recognizes the beauty of Wikipedia is worth considering. xD

And their mascot is the Purple Cow. :3

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Sun, 25 Mar 2007 19:50:27 GMT

"I'm hearin' what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me then you go and cut me down
But wait
You tell me that you're sorry didn't think I'd turn around and say:
That it's too late to apologize
Too late
Said it's too late to apologize
Too late"
~One Republic, Apologize

if someone could just give me their opinion on those lyrics, that would be great. don't just comment without thinking, please actually take some time and consider what you write. i'm just curious.
if you think you know how they apply to me, congrats. i don't want to see it on here. IM me and we'll talk.

Saturday, March 24, 2007

Sat, 24 Mar 2007 17:50:23 GMT

Isn't it ironic that less than twenty pet deaths can provoke nationwide outrage, but an American death toll of well over three-thousand can't end a baseless war?

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Tue, 20 Mar 2007 00:44:16 GMT

hello. i'm back. kind of. i took a break from the internet and found that a few people somewhat freaked out. so i'm back. but really only b/c i need to attack someone since they need to be my source for my story that is due tomorrow. i asked her yesterday and now she's not online and i couldn't find her after school. damn. i knew i should have just basically pounced on her in the morning. i had other concerns though.
oh yay, i might be getting her cell number. poo, it's only her house number. and it's kind of late to be calling someone you don't really know. i'll just leave a message on facebook.
ho hum, what else is there....
this friday was fun. i went home and was about to get online and chat after a week of non-aimness when my dad calls and tells me to get my butt over to the race shop. well, i knew that he wanted to work on my car to try and get it ready to practice saturday, but i figured we would go right after school. i was at home for an hour and a half before the call came. then he gets mad at me b/c i'm not there yet Sammy and Steve whom we share the shop w/ are both over there working on my car. so i freak out and get my butt over there. then i end up just being used to take Sammy and his borderline-emo/headbanger (yeah, oddness, don't ask me to explain, i can't) friend to applebees in noblesville. might i just say that we are in westfield. the far western side of westfield. to the east of westfield is carmel, where i live. then east of that is noblesville. of course i know none of this when i agree to take them to applebees. but yeah. 45 minutes in traffic with two guys, one of whom i don't even know...slightly odd. but blink-182 was there to save the day. *giggles* Kyle (Sammy's friend) ended up playing Sammy's guitar to the songs he knew (Sammy air drummed sporadically) while Sammy instructed me on how to drive his old race car.
some other time this week was tre fun too. the junior photographers went out during SRT and goofed off while actually taking photos. yeah. i kind of love HiLite.
oh Kristine, newspapers were sent today. all four of them. yeah. have fun. XP

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Wed, 14 Mar 2007 20:19:23 GMT

i was walking down the trail today, sweating a little from the heat. i see an Indian guy ahead of me and Jimmy, a senior in my Jap class a bit ahead of him. we walk, single file down the trail to the street where we are promptly stopped by the policeman who is directing traffic, allowing a long line of cars to pass. i turn to look at them. Jimmy is swinging his keys around his fingers, Omar (he's one of the Senate reps for my grade and that Indian kid i mentioned earlier) is standing there, his hands in his pockets. we stand there for a little bit in silence, watching the cars go by. Jimmy turns to me (Omar is between us) and asks me if i thought reading memoirs of a geisha was cool or not and what i thought of the movie. at this point, Omar joins the conversation, saying that he liked the cinematography. for about three minutes the three of us have a conversation.
none of us really know each other.
yet
in that small moment of connection
i felt secure.

Swiped off Jessica K

Tue, 13 Mar 2007 04:50:33 GMT

i'll just post mine here as well so space is saved. (3-14-07)
Rules:
1. Put numbers in the boxes instead of x's (example: 1, 2, 3, 4...)
2. Repost as "I have lived through ___ of these 158 things."

I have lived through 69 of these 158 things...

[ ] I have read a lot of books. 1
[ ] I have been on some sort of varsity team.
[ ] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping. 2
[ ] I have been to Canada. 3

[ ] I have been to Europe.
[ ] I have watched cartoons for hours. 4
[ ] I have tripped UP the stairs. 5
[ ] I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs. 6 (i hate the math stairs...especially in the mornings. not fun)
[ ] I have been snowboarding/skiing. (...ish) 7

[ ] I have played ping pong. 8
[ ] I swam in the ocean. 9
[ ] I have been on a whale watch.
[ ] I have seen fireworks. 10

[ ] I have seen a shooting star. 11 (she has too but she must have forgotten)
[ ] I have seen a meteor shower. 12
[ ] I have almost drowned. 13 (i wasn't even 2 years old and i jumped into a pool w/ my normal clothes on b/c other kids were. yeah. i'm cool.)
[ ] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.

[ ] I have listened to one CD over and over and over again. 14
[ ] I have had stitches. 15
[ ] I have had frostbite.
[ ] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.
[ ] I have stayed up 'til 2 doing homework/projects. 16 (and got up at 5 to work on them some more...)
[ ] I currently have a job.
[ ] I have been ice skating. 17
[ ] I have been roller blading. 18
[ ] I have fallen flat on my face. 19 (and have three scars to prove i have each time)
[ ] I have tripped over my own two feet. 20
[ ] I have been in a fist fight.
[ ] I have played video games for more than 3 hours straight. 21
[ ] I have watched the Power Rangers.

[    ] I attend Church regularly.
[    ] I have played truth or dare. 22
[ ] I have already had my 16th birthday. 23
[    ] I have already had my 17th birthday.
[    ] I've called someone stupid. 24
[    ] I've been in a verbal argument. 25
[    ] I've cried in school. 26
[    ] I've played basketball on a team.
[    ] I've played baseball on a team.
[    ] I've played football on a team.
[    ] I've played soccer on a team.
[    ] I've done cheerleading on a team. 27 (4th grade, okay, IT BARELY COUNTS!!!)
[    ] I've played softball on a team.
[    ] I've played volleyball on a team.
[    ] I've played tennis on a team.
[    ] I've been on a track or cross country team.
[    ] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life. 28
[    ] I've bungee jumped.

[    ] I've climbed a rock wall. 29 (if the rock wall at bamboola counts, that thing rocked, no pun intended)
[    ] I've lost more than $20. 30
[    ] I've called myself an idiot. 31
[    ] I've called someone else an idiot. 32
[    ] I've cried myself to sleep. 33
[    ] I've had (or have) pets. 34

[    ] I've owned a spice girls CD.
[    ] I've owned a Britney Spears CD. 35
[    ] I've owned an N*Sync CD. 36
[    ] I've owned a Backstreet Boys CD. 37 (none of my own doing, had i just been left with my blink-182 i think i would have turned out a lot better, but whatever...)
[    ] I've mooned someone.
[    ] I have sworn at someone of authority before. 38 (if someone w/ racing authority counts)
[    ] I've been in the newspaper. 39
[    ] I've been on TV.
[    ] I've been to Hawaii. 40
[    ] I've eaten sushi. 41
[    ] I've been on the other side of a waterfall. 42
[    ] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies. 43
[    ] I've watched all the Harry Potter movies. 44
[    ] I've watched all of the Rocky movies.
[    ] I've watched the 3 Stooges. 45
[    ] I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica. 46 (half an episode...X.x)
[    ] I've watched Looney Tunes. 47 (and baby loonie toons)
[    ] I've been stuffed into a locker/I have stuffed others into lockers.

[    ] I've been called a geek. 48
[    ] I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade. 49
[    ] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it. 50
[    ] I've hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs. 51
[    ] I've hugged my dad within the past 24 hours. 52
[    ] I've met a celebrity/music artist.
[    ] I've written (bad) poetry. 53
[    ] I've been arrested.

[    ] I've been attracted to someone much older than me.
[    ] I've been tickled till I've cried. 54
[    ] I've tickled someone else until they cried. 55
[    ] I've had/have siblings. 56
[    ] I've been to a rock concert. 57 (areosmith + motley crue, oh yeah!!!)

[    ] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it.
[    ] I've been in a play.
[    ] I've been picked last in gym class. 58
[    ] I've been picked first in gym class. 59
[    ] I've been picked in that middle-range in gym class. 60

[    ] I've cried in front of my friends. 61
[    ] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages 62
[    ] I've played Halo 2. 63 (and she has too b/c i played it with her, that liar)
[    ] I've freaked out over a sports game. 64 (a million and ten times)
[    ] I've been to Alaska.

[    ] I've been to China.
[    ] I've been to Spain.
[    ] I've been to Japan.
[    ] I've had a fight with someone on AIM. 65
[    ] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face. 66
[    ] I've had serious conversations on any IM. 67

[    ] I've forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me. 68
[    ] I've been forgiven. 69
[    ] I've screamed at a scary movie. 70
[    ] I've cried at a chick flick. 71 (was titanic a chick flick?)
[    ] I've watched a lot of action movies. 72
[    ] I've screamed at the top of my lungs. 73
[    ] I've been to a rap concert.

[    ] I've been to a hip hop concert.
[    ] I've lived in more than 2 houses. 74
[    ] I've driven on the highway/been on the highway. 75
[    ] I've driven more than 40 miles in a day/been in a car that went more than 40 miles in a day. 76 (try 400)
[    ] I've been in a car accident. 77

[    ] I've done drugs.
[    ] I've been homesick.
[    ] I've thrown up. 78
[    ] I've puked on someone. 79 (according to a lovely story my mom likes to tell about when i was a baby)
[    ] I've been horseback riding. 80

[    ] I've filled out more than LJ surveys. (more than what?)
[    ] I've spoken my mind in public. 81
[    ] I've proved someone wrong. 82
[    ] I've been proven wrong by someone. 83
[    ] I've broken a leg. 84 (*snort*)

[    ] I've broken an arm/fingers.
[    ] I've fallen off a swing.
[    ] I've swung on a swing for more than 30 minutes straight
[    ] I've watched Winnie the Pooh movies. 85
[    ] I've forgotten my backpack when I've gone to school.

[    ] I've lost my backpack.
[    ] I've come close to dying.
[    ] I've seen someone die.
[    ] I've known someone who has died. 86
[    ] I've wanted to be an actor/actress at some point.

[    ] I've done modeling.
[    ] I've forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings. 87
[    ] I've taken something/someone for granted. 88
[    ] I've realized how good my life is. 89
[    ] I've counted my blessings.
[    ] I've made fun of a classmate. 90
[    ] I've been asked out by someone and I said no.

[    ] I've slapped someone in the face. 91
[    ] I've been skateboarding. 92
[    ] I've been backstabbed by someone I thought was a friend. 93
[    ] I've lied to someone to their face. 94
[    ] I've told a little white lie. 95

[    ] I've taken a day off from school just so I don't go insane. 96 (3/4 of a day but my head really did hurt...i think that was it protesting about going insane)
[    ] I've fainted.
[    ] I've had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not. 97 (gillis.......)
[    ] I've pushed someone into a pool. 98
[    ]I've been pushed into a pool.
[    ] I've been/am in love.

not bad. funny how many of those things are like, "well everyone will go through that sometime, so does that really count?" (ie, birthdays)